Kase madaling maghanap ng taong mamahalin mo,

Pero mahirap makahanap ng taong tunay na magmamahal sa iyo.

Kase mahirap magkunwari sa harap ng taong di ka kayang tanggapin,

Pero magaan kasama ang taong tanggap kahit madilim ang nakaraan mo.

Kase masarap mangarap kasama ang taong gusto mong makasama sa hinaharap,

Kaysa maabot ang pinapangarap mong buhay na nag iisa.

Kaya pag nahanap mo na ang taong mamahalin ka, tatanggapin ka at nanaising mabuhay kasama ka,

Alagaan mo at wag baliwalain.

Kase hindi mo alam kung meron pa uling darating na magmamahal sa iyo higit pa sa inaalay nya sa iyo.

It was one helluva rollercoaster ride. Talk about life as a wheel, wherein sometimes you’re up, sometimes you’re down. But it still keeps turning.

 There were gains and losses, laughters and tears, challenges and triumphs, heart aches and beats.

First on the list is my group mates’ leaving one by one. I’ve spent more than half of my waking time with them. They are virtually my world for at least 8 hours. And when they leave you, a part of your world goes away with them. And your world will never be the same.

God is so good that, even before you reach your threshold of pain or loneliness, He will give you rest. Luckily, rest was an understatement. He gave me tons of shared laughter with new-found friends. I think I have laughed the most this year since the bygone QM Mousee days. I’ve kept a few friends from then on. Even though there was a far age difference, these people measured up to my level of maturity.

 There was also lots of work left undone. And who else do they turn to do the job? Nobody nobody but me…literally. My 5:30pm days were so over. So was my travelling days… Pffft. Fortunately, before the year ended, somebody saw the need for human contact and socialization if you are in a group called People & Organization Effectiveness. Our whole team was given the opportunity to travel to all regions for the ‘eVo 2.0 Cascade’ and the year-end ‘Rewards & Recognition Program’. It was so exasperating from the preparations to the actual runs. With energies drained to the lowest level, we still managed to enjoy every bit of our moments together. A thousand pictures paint only one word… BLAST!

And lastly, before the year ended, somebody found me. It was not the usual love-at-first-sight thingy or that usual ‘ting!’ when we first met. He was so ordinary; he did not stood out in the crowd. But he managed to melt my frozen heart. Although still broken, I am starting to pick up the pieces, one piece at a time. It’s not easy to forget someone who meant the world to you and then leave you for somebody else, but having people around you who always shower you with love is enough to banish all pain, sadness, anger and bitterness left inside.

To end my piece, I would like to thank Kikay for being so understanding of her mama. For letting me sleep all day. For enjoying my favorite food. For letting me do the things I want to do. For those amusing remarks that always leave me crying in laughter. I have raised a good daughter, though very strong a personality for a 6-year old, I am happy with what she has become.

Cheers to MMX! Ups or downs… bring it on!ü

Yes.  And now that I’m back in the place where we used to spend the best of our times, where every corner, every road, every establishment spell memories of us, I can’t stop but reminisce and feel sad that it didn’t work out between us.  But at the same time I feel happy that he is happy with what he has got.

Since boarding the plane from Cebu, I have been feeling an urge to text him and let him know that I’ll be in town.  What stopped me from doing so was that I can’t think of anything else to say to him then aside from “sayang tayo…”.  Not that I want us together again, but because it would’ve been a nice life spending it with him.  But then again, God didn’t plan it that way.

Another reason I want to reconnect with him is that I still want him to be my friend.  He was once, and a very good one at that.  He was that friend who would give the best and most sound advice.  He was that friend who would answer your call early in the morning even after he just came from graveyard shift.  He was that friend who would always reassure you that he will care for and treasure you for the rest of your lives.  He was all that and much more.  He was that friend you know is just waiting for the right time to tell you that you are special to him and that he loves you.  And when that time came, I did not pass it up anymore.  Coz I know that, with him, everything will be alright.

They say that people do not really leave us, their roles just change.  From a friend, to someone more than that, to someone who gave the world to me to nothing at all… sayang ang pinagsamahan.  Someone told me not to make any effort and just leave it up to fate.  I believe that things happen for a reason.  And if ever we meet again, I just hope he will mean something more to me than just another used to be.

(First Time)

Ang gusto lang naman nya ay makarating ng Baguio sa unang pagkakataon, pero ito ang napala nya…

naubusan ng bus,

naligaw,

naka pasyal din naman,

kumain nang magutom,

namili ng pasalubong,

sinulit ang pamamasyal hanggang gabi,

d nakapasok ng SM,

nag hapunan na lang sa isang italian resto sa Session Road… uy si Ken un a!

 namasyal sa Burnham Park,

tumoma sa Bahay Kubo,

uwian na ba???

ooops, hindi pa!  bababa lang…

o, san si Dher?  naiwan? nagpa iwan?  umuwi dahil may emergency… sayang… but the show must go on,

Welcome to Alaminos!

hapunan sa tabing dagat,

onting palipas oras,

tanung tanong kung san mamamasyal bukas,

at pagsapit ng bukang liwayway…

namalengke…

at go go go na sa Hundred Islands!

pumose muna,

umakyat ng burol… wow ganda ng view!

nag swimming at cheesy moments,

sana totoong jowa na lang ang kasama… sayang ung moment e!!!

pinasok ang kweba,

nag snorkling,

asan si Roch???  nags-snorkling lessons,

swimming swimming,

kayaking,

Teenjoe, ibaba mo ko dito papatayin na talaga kita!!!  -Roch

tatalon mula sa itaas??? uh-oh!  cge kayo na lang!

good time,

ang aming pics dito, courtesy of manong Italyano (itang ilocano),

our last stop…

haaay, uwian na nga talaga at may pasok pa bukas.

Ang gusto lang naman nya ay makarating sa unang pagkakataon sa Baguio, pero ang napala nya ay d malilimutang saya, mga bagong kaibigan at karanasang di malilimutan.

END

“Ang Pagdadalaga ni Roch Tubigan”

Starring:

Actress: Roch Tubigan

Actor: Tadz Dictado

Supporting Actress: Glen Benitez

Supporting Actor: Dher Manalo

Director: Teenjoe Ocado

Camera Man: Miki Fabros

Assistant Camera Man: Manong Italyano

Cameo Role: Ken Nadela